This is What I Want to SEA! is a digital lecture offering a glimpse into the thriving underground Ballroom scenes across Southeast Asia. Originating as a Black and Brown queer movement in New York City, Ballroom culture has gained global visibility while adapting uniquely to Southeast Asian contexts. The lecture highlights regional trailblazers in the Philippines, Thailand, Vietnam, Malaysia, Singapore, and Indonesia, showcasing the growth of Ballroom in these countries. Using the lens of "disidentification," it examines how Ballroom aesthetics challenge cis-heteronormative norms through gender performance, beauty reclamation, and alternative kinship structures. The lecture is accompanied by a dance film featuring regional collaborators.